if you do not love me I shall not be loved, if I do not love you I shall not love

terrified again
of not loving
of loving and not you
of being loved and not by you

My sister is visiting, and we did a love story marathon last night – one tearjerker (Ghost) and one romcom (Love Actually). I last saw Ghost years ago as a teenager, and I honestly thought I’d be more skeptical this time around (oh, please!) But nope, I still cried. This song … it’s too much, even shirtless!PatrickSwayze couldn’t distract me.

My favorite story in Love Actually is the Emma Thompson/Alan Rickman marriage, but Bill Nighy the dissolute yet somehow still charming rake is a very close second. My sister is aghast. “Bill Nighy?? He’s like, older than Dad!” Hah!

Random Stuff I’ve Been Watching

State of Play (BBC Miniseries)

This is an old BBC miniseries from 2003, which is the basis for the Russell Crowe movie with the same title. The basic story is the same, revolving around the death of a young woman who was working for, and having an affair with, a politician. In the movie, the main journalist investigating the story is an old friend of the politican, while in the miniseries, he was his former campaign manager. I thought this was a bit odd, moving from politics to straight reporting – Cal is an investigative journalist, not a pundit or columnist – but maybe that’s actually common in the UK, I don’t know. Not surprisingly, I enjoyed the miniseries a lot more – it has more time to develop the story, it doesn’t have the super annoying bloggers-are-not-real-journalists preachy storyline, instead of Cal (Russell Crowe) acting like a cowboy investigating on his own most of the time and helped occasionally by Della (Rachel McAdams) the female sidekick, the investigation in the miniseries felt more like a true team effort between Cal, Della and three other reporters. (Check out  James McAvoy in his pre-movie star days  as one of the reporters, who also happens to be the editor’s son). And finally, even though Helen Mirren usually can do no wrong with me, Mirren’s editor pales in comparison with Bill Nighy’s sarcastic, delightful portrayal.

Page Eight (BBC Film)

A bit of a letdown after all my anticipation. Nighy plays an MI5 officer (with the delightful name Johnny Worricker) who after the sudden death of his boss (Dumbledore as the Director General of MI5!) came across a secret involving the British government – that the Prime Minister (played by The Dark Lord Voldermort himself, heh), despite repeated denials, knew that the US had been torturing prisoners (including British citizens) in secret overseas prison. In addition, the PM also knew the locations of these secret prisons, and presumably could have intervened on behalf of the British prisoners, but chose not to. There’s a complicated family story – Johnny’s boss is married to his ex-wife, Johnny has a distant relationship with his artist daughter who has a secret of her own. There’s also a love story (or is it?) between Johnny and a neighbor played by Rachel Weisz, who has her own agenda. It sounds exciting on paper, but a little bit dull on screen, to be honest. And the ending provokes this question – do you expose a secret that will presumably bring justice for many, many people, or expose a secret that will bring justice for one particular person, who happens to be the brother of a woman you care about? Maybe it’s human nature to choose the latter, but I think you lose your moral high ground once you’ve done that.

The Young Victoria

I’m going to be really, really shallow here, and confess that my enjoyment of this actually quite good movie is seriously, seriously spoiled by the fact that I JUST DON”T UNDERSTAND how the young Queen Victoria can choose the drippy, annoying Albert over Paul Bettany’s charming, delightful Lord Melbourne. Well, obviously the answer is: history!!, but in that case, maybe the movie should have cast someone more charismatic  than the bland, boring, seriously-he’s-worse-than-Orlando-Bloom, Rupert Friend to play Albert. What woman in her right mind would choose him over Paul Bettany??? Does.not.compute. Mark Strong is excellent as the baddie, though.

The Constant Gardener and Page Eight

Currently reading John le Carre’s The Constant Gardener (trying to work my way through le Carre’s 21st century books, very, very slowly). I saw the film adaptation years ago, my memory of it is a bit fuzzy. The most blatant change the movie made is the age difference between Tessa and Justin. I’m not sure what’s the age difference between Ralph Fiennes and Rachel Weisz in real life, but in the movie, they look like they are only a few years apart. In the book, people were making jokes about Justin marrying someone young enough to be his daughter, and whether Tessa had passed her A-Levels yet. I thought someone like Bill Nighy might fit the bill better, but alas, Nighy only rated a supporting part in The Constant Gardener. I’m reading along imagining how much better the movie would have been if it was Bill Nighy playing Justin. I mentioned this to my husband, and he pointed out that there is indeed a movie (Page Eight) starring Bill Nighy and Rachel Weisz in the leading roles! And it even has Ralph Fiennes playing a supporting character! And it’s a movie about spies! (Sure, The Constant Gardener is not about spies, but there’s the spy connection with le Carre).  Feels so weird, like imagining something and it almost came true. Obviously it’s a completely different movie from The Constant Gardener, but still, serendipity. Page Eight is going on top of my to-watch list!